Wednesday, April 13, 2005

it has been a while

seems like it has been quite a while since i last blogged about the happenings around me... maybe that's because there is nothing much going on - nothing to get excited about and nothing much to complain... well, i can't say that's true on the emotions side of me (pretty hard to explain why here)...
other than that, i've been pretty busy... at first it was the finals which i think i did pretty bad in almost every paper... and then, just after a day's rest, i've been busy with a robotic competition which is coming soon... dun really feel like elaborating on it coz i dun think we've got any chance of winning it right now... maybe later?
however, i do realize something... i used to be the kind of person who loves to reflect back on past memories - to rekindle back the feelings often good old times... and to my surprise, it hasn't happened lately... not even once in the past couple of months... i've just been swept by the tide of events around me... getting too hooked up in my studies, ignoring everything around me...
and another thing is that there is a lot of changes happening around me which i didn't take the time to notice them before.. and now, the changes have suddenly hit me and i've realized that it is just too rapid... my family situation, my relationship with my gf and my friends, my life in uniten, my studies... so many changes in such short time... it's hard coming to terms with...
anyway, my head hurts real bad right now and i think i've gotta go get some sleep... g'night...
ps: reading through my entry, it seems pretty disoriented... that's probably the best way to describe my situation/ feelings right now...

Saturday, April 02, 2005

why?!

stop screaming at me
stop being angry with me
stop blaming me
i just needed your support
why are you treating me like this?!